I’m sure plenty of people who once reached a certain age would start worrying about real-life events, deep questions or just the cruelty of the world. The sudden realisation when you took a small glimpse into the world opened your eyes, and perhaps those that continue staring on rather than excusing themselves from this unknown world would start realising that what they saw could have just been the surface.
You start to question yourself, your own existence, morals and the black and whites of a person. At this point, most people would’ve just chosen to ignore and continue on with life to their life to adulthood, where they would get a job, live their life and leave this behind. They might remember it again though every once in a while through something that might trigger it like news of a mass shooting or perhaps a tiring day might cause a doubt for existence. These people probably mainly come from the boomer generation, as they found joy even in knowing the thoughts in their head. They found their peace in family and own enjoyments.
The ones that are left behind are those that were unable to get rid of these thoughts. They are jealous of fools who did not think much into these kind of stuff and gain happiness through simplicity. They are jealous of the geniuses that were able to find their own answers and accept it while they themselves realised their own inability. These people would probably mainly come from the doomer generation. This pain and fear might last up to a month and more, before you get distracted or forcefully pulled away from it. Those that failed to pull away, chances are that they are gone should they be unable to find their own satisfaction or separate their thoughts. While we might be jealous of the geniuses that seem to have their answers, chances are that some of them would have realised how much worse it was due to smarter thinking and understanding. Those that have that are unlikely to still be here in this world.
For those still suffering in their own thoughts while understanding being unable to truly voice it out as it was not really a physical suffering, I wish you all the best :)
